I am done!!!

At 10:00pm tonight I was officially free from school (at least for a while). Normally I should feel happy, but I feel like I am still very tense and I don’t feel relaxed. I am not very sleepy as well. Why is that? So many stuff in my mind, should they be there? mmm….I don’t know….

I am so lack of sleep this week. I was soooooo stressful. And, I have so many pimples as well. I am a girl. I don’t want people to look at me like at. Most importantly, I don’t want myself to be like that. As what my friend said: “Being successful requires sacrifice, hard work, and some luck. Will I have the “some” luck to be successful? How much do I need to sacrifice to become what I want to be? How can I achieve what I want to be? It seems for far that I cannot reach there…..What should I do leh? Or what can I do? Life is so complicated….Why am I in the United States in the first place? Maybe it is just better if I didn’t come here. By this time, I would probrably be working in the restaurant or maybe in college in TJ. Maybe I would have a Mexican boyfriend as well. Wouldn’t life be not as complicated and stressful as this?

Final week of My first quarter at UCSD…

I am so glad that this quarter almost end, because all I can think of this quarter is STRESS. Up to now I am still very stressed out, because I will have P.chem final on Monday 7:30-11:00am, and O-chem Final on Tuesday from 7-10 PM. What should I do now? How should I study for the finals? Instead of being freak out, here is my plan for Friday, Saturday, and Sunday, and Monday.

Friday: 10-11am Pchem lecture

11-4pm Skim through Ch1-Ch.12. Write the cheat sheet for Ch.1 and Ch.10. Review the previous stuff. Everything prior to Ch.10. Finally, work on the Practice Final
4-6pm Go to Dr.Crowell’s office hour

6:30pm Eat dinner maybe.

7:00pm Go to costco with sister.

Come back and finish Ch.9 O-Chem HW. Work on Ch.8 HW.

Copy the notes for O-Chem.

Saturday: Review P-chem. When bored, review O-chem

Sunday: Do the midterms for P-chem. When bored, review O-chem.

Monday: 7:30-11am P-chem final. After that I will start looking at the final exams, previous midterms for O-chem.

the gene named “smedwi-2″

Prior to reading this article, I didn’t know that genes have names. I thought that a gene contains regions of the DNA that my parents passed to me. As my biology teacher emphasized that “genes code for the production of proteins”. Proteins are very important. If one specific protein is missing in you body, you may have a certain disease that was what happened to me before. Anyways, the researchers in University of Utah discovered that (if I interpreted correctly) in the organisms named Planarians the elimination of “smedwi-2″ disabled the cells to regenerate. Without the “smedwi-2″, a cut in the skin cannot be healed. Cells are very stupid that they don’t know how to differentiate without this gene. Most importantly, genes similar to smedwi-2 are found in human beings!!!! More information can be found in http:www.utah.edu/unews/releases/05/nov/regeneration.html

Happy Thanksgiving…

After reading Google’s Thanksgiving letter, it makes me reflect on what I am thankful for. I am thankful for:

• My family. Without them, I will not be there. I will not be able to go to college. College really opens my life to many  wonderful experiences.
• My honey. Thanks for being so patient and nice to me. Thanks for staying with me and supporting me.
• Monica. When I am very unhappy she is the one that call me and after talking to her, it makes me feel much better. She is very supporting and optimistic. I am so happy for her that she found a very good guy and she doesn’t have to be in “immigration jail” anymore. So happy for her.
• I am thankful for having a pretty nice shelter. Maybe next year, it would not be that nice but for the time being I am very thankful for that.

Thanksgiving holiday=shopping time….I hope that applies to me. It seems like this year I don’t have the mood to go to shopping. I remember last year during this time (2:31am), me and my honey were in line for CompUsa, it was quite a crazy experience. And last last year, I was in Viejas with Grey Grey and Fei Fan. After that we went to Fashion Valley to shop, I still remembered. Good old times. Times that I cannot turn back anymore……Never and ever……..

A very stressful week….

Week 8 (Nov.14-18) has been a very very stressful week for me….

Shitty day

Damn I don’t know what day is today, but it must be black Thursday….because first of all I lost my O-Chem notebook and I have midterm on Tuesday….Damn my lovely notebook is all gone….Will not come back no  more…Hopefully the TA has it( which I doubt) and hopefully one of the people from the lab accidentally took it…keep my fingers crossed.

 What is worst? We got a ticket! As usual we would U-Turn illegal at the traffic light, then a stupid cop stop us. My honey was so nervous and he told me that we got caught. At first, I thought he was kidding. Then the stupid cop flashed the bright white light. Then, he asked “Did you guys know there is a no U-Turn sign (huh…of course we know). Then, he asked for driver license and he asked whether we lived here or not. We could have talk out of the ticket (I think according to Mr. Peters). But, since this is the first time stopping by a police, we have no freaking experience. Plus my insurance is under my sister’s name and the address there is from SF not here in SD.

My conclusion is what a fuck up day today….hope my notebook will come back to me….Now I gotta go and study for my midtermS. Peace out.  

interesting dreams…

Yesterday night, I had very weird dreams…First of all, I dreamed that I have a halogen T-shirt…

When we are very sleepy…(A SECRET will be revealed)

Something very interesting happened on Friday when my gugu was very sleepy (because he stayed up all night and didn’t sleep) and he fell asleep in my couch. He was supposed to go to class at 4pm…so I TRIED to wake him up at 3:30pm. I tried the traditionally way is to just say “Honey wake up lah”, “Honey wake up lah”,

How to cope with stress…

Is life in general very stressful? Are we stressful only when we age? As many people will argue that children do not experience stress, is that right? Looking back to my childhood, I have vivid, colorful, and naive memories about being a child. Being a child does not have to worry about grades, does not have to worry about money, does not have to worry about how he/she looks, does not have to worry about how society views him/her. So, my point is being a child is wonderful. But, I cannot be a child all my life. Every human has to age. As we age, there is no doubt that we will encounter stressful moments.

UCSDing…

After four weeks of UCSD, here are the results:

1. O-chem midterm: 148/250=59% (just average)…

2. P-chem midter: 79/100= I think it is a B…hopefully a B+…Well, not very happy with the outcome but still acceptable…This means gotta work even extra harder for the next midterm…

3. Analytical Chem Lab: TBA….will have the midterm tomorrow…

Buddha, Jessus help me…Please give me some motivation to study…OMG…so lazy this weekend. I feel so unproductive this weekend. What did I do this weekend? Nothing…I really need motivation…6 more weeks of school then the Fall quarter will end…how nice is that…

 Anyways anyways…Happy happy halloween to me!