THE END

Finally everything comes to a conclusion.

I got my confirmation and reality check.

No need to further ask, why?

Because it is obviously being portrayed, and

My heart knows the answer.

Welcome back to the real world, Miss Jinyi Zheng.

Also, the semi-bitter end of this blog as well.

I am done!!!

At 10:00pm tonight I was officially free from school (at least for a while). Normally I should feel happy, but I feel like I am still very tense and I don’t feel relaxed. I am not very sleepy as well. Why is that? So many stuff in my mind, should they be there? mmm….I don’t know….

I am so lack of sleep this week. I was soooooo stressful. And, I have so many pimples as well. I am a girl. I don’t want people to look at me like at. Most importantly, I don’t want myself to be like that. As what my friend said: “Being successful requires sacrifice, hard work, and some luck. Will I have the “some” luck to be successful? How much do I need to sacrifice to become what I want to be? How can I achieve what I want to be? It seems for far that I cannot reach there…..What should I do leh? Or what can I do? Life is so complicated….Why am I in the United States in the first place? Maybe it is just better if I didn’t come here. By this time, I would probrably be working in the restaurant or maybe in college in TJ. Maybe I would have a Mexican boyfriend as well. Wouldn’t life be not as complicated and stressful as this?

Happy Thanksgiving…

After reading Google’s Thanksgiving letter, it makes me reflect on what I am thankful for. I am thankful for:

• My family. Without them, I will not be there. I will not be able to go to college. College really opens my life to many  wonderful experiences.
• My honey. Thanks for being so patient and nice to me. Thanks for staying with me and supporting me.
• Monica. When I am very unhappy she is the one that call me and after talking to her, it makes me feel much better. She is very supporting and optimistic. I am so happy for her that she found a very good guy and she doesn’t have to be in “immigration jail” anymore. So happy for her.
• I am thankful for having a pretty nice shelter. Maybe next year, it would not be that nice but for the time being I am very thankful for that.

Thanksgiving holiday=shopping time….I hope that applies to me. It seems like this year I don’t have the mood to go to shopping. I remember last year during this time (2:31am), me and my honey were in line for CompUsa, it was quite a crazy experience. And last last year, I was in Viejas with Grey Grey and Fei Fan. After that we went to Fashion Valley to shop, I still remembered. Good old times. Times that I cannot turn back anymore……Never and ever……..

Shitty day

Damn I don’t know what day is today, but it must be black Thursday….because first of all I lost my O-Chem notebook and I have midterm on Tuesday….Damn my lovely notebook is all gone….Will not come back no  more…Hopefully the TA has it( which I doubt) and hopefully one of the people from the lab accidentally took it…keep my fingers crossed.

 What is worst? We got a ticket! As usual we would U-Turn illegal at the traffic light, then a stupid cop stop us. My honey was so nervous and he told me that we got caught. At first, I thought he was kidding. Then the stupid cop flashed the bright white light. Then, he asked “Did you guys know there is a no U-Turn sign (huh…of course we know). Then, he asked for driver license and he asked whether we lived here or not. We could have talk out of the ticket (I think according to Mr. Peters). But, since this is the first time stopping by a police, we have no freaking experience. Plus my insurance is under my sister’s name and the address there is from SF not here in SD.

My conclusion is what a fuck up day today….hope my notebook will come back to me….Now I gotta go and study for my midtermS. Peace out.  

UCSDing…

After four weeks of UCSD, here are the results:

1. O-chem midterm: 148/250=59% (just average)…

2. P-chem midter: 79/100= I think it is a B…hopefully a B+…Well, not very happy with the outcome but still acceptable…This means gotta work even extra harder for the next midterm…

3. Analytical Chem Lab: TBA….will have the midterm tomorrow…

Buddha, Jessus help me…Please give me some motivation to study…OMG…so lazy this weekend. I feel so unproductive this weekend. What did I do this weekend? Nothing…I really need motivation…6 more weeks of school then the Fall quarter will end…how nice is that…

 Anyways anyways…Happy happy halloween to me!

New Blog!!!

wow…”nini.wordpress.com”…pretty cool domain…I feel like I own a website now…Since I “own” a website now, what should I do with it? I gotta start blogging…jotting down what will be the history of my life…

Talking about life…This makes me reflect on the meaning of life….Or what is the meaning of “My” life?

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