lame

I am extremely unproductive this 4-day weekend….nothing that was planned has been completed…I am very stupid and lazy. I really hate myself….I hate being like this…I guess there is so many stuff that bothers me a lot and I cannot focused on my studies. First of all, I was writing my resume and guess what, when I am in the “Experience” part….it is blank….BLANK….I don’t know what to write. I don’t have any research experience, I don’t have any intership experience, I don’t have any teaching experience….I am blank…..as blank as a white paper….I am so lost…I know that there are so many things that I need to do but I am so lost to the point where I don’t know how to get started. I don’t know where to start. I am so lost.